The Signs Are Everywhere.

If we were buds on Facebook, you will already know this story...on Friday morning I woke myself up from a dream.  I was having the most vivid dream where my grandma and I were walking down the hallway of a school-type building (and why wouldn't we be), both of us were carrying plastic grocery bags filled with who knows what. She crossed over in front of me, set her bags down on a bench and then turned to give me a huge hug...and I held on tight.

I woke up with mixed feelings because the hug was so real to me, as if it really just happened and yet sad with the realization it has been a month and she is still gone.  I am crying more now than I did a month ago but I suppose it's because the realization is setting in.

Some people say dreams hold signs from above, and yet others think we choose our dreams.

After hearing of the dream, my sister sent me an e-mail saying her four-year old daughter brought home a book from school this week called Sharing Grandma's Gift which told a story of a quilting grandmother who became ill with a sickness and died.  My sister felt like grandma had a hand in getting this book home for Kennedi to read because it told grandma's story to the letter.

As we talked about our recent experiences, I recalled an e-mail I exchanged with a supplier at work the day before.  She had a personalized license plate on her car so I asked her what it meant and she responded:

GMA1HVN = Grandma Won Heaven

Again maybe we want to beleive these are signs...maybe they aren't. Whatever they are, it has been comforting, so I'm choosing to believe.

As if our family hasn't dealt with death enough in the last few months, Ryan's friend I wrote about here -> His Reb is My Job passed away last night so I had to tell him.  He asked what cemetery Reb would be buried at and if we could go there sometime to visit him.  I was both surprised and happy about his grown up response because he is only four years old...but then again, this the fourth time in the last three months we've had to talk about somebody dying.

Here's to signs...and believing they were shown to us for a reason.